Mommyhood

MENTAL NOTES BEFORE DELIVERY

0 No tags Permalink
  • My baby is not breech but it is sunny side up meaning it’s facing the wrong way (posterior vs. anterior.)  Miss P. was that way and it made labor a lot more intense.  Read her birth story, here.  My midwife told me to spend a lot of time in child’s pose.  Awesome.  Anyone know where I can get a lot of time and then also be able to spend that a lot of time in CHILD’S POSE?
  • I’ve been doing acupuncture to get my body ready for labor.  I highly recommend it, it’s the most peaceful 45 minutes you’ll ever aim to achieve at 38 weeks pregnant.  I’m a firm believer.  I’m already 2 centimeters dilated and 50% effaced.  That sounds good, right? I was completely closed when I was induced because of my dysplasia with Decker at 40 weeks.  Pitocin contractions when you’re body isn’t ready are NO JOKE so I’m doing everything I can to avoid that.
  • I was doing some reading on “how to spin your baby” last night and read that your body might not go into labor if you are terrified.  Well that’s too bad because I’m terrified.  Even after doing it twice, there is really nothing about the process that doesn’t terrify me.  Not many people admit this but my bet is that if you talk to other friends it’s a pretty common feeling.  “But what about the part when you get to hold your baby?” Terrifies me.  “Hearing it cry for the first time?” Terrifying.  I start feeling slightly less terrified when we’ve had all of our tests done and are cleared to leave the hospital.  Then a new set of fears set in but it’s nothing compared to the fear of giving birth and the day after for me.
  • I have a love/hate relationship with epidurals.  There are no awards given to those who don’t accept an epidural the last time I checked.  I have no need for bragging rights in that regard.  I’m a sensitive redhead that feels every tiny ounce of pain to a greater degree than non-redheads. (It’s a fact, look it up.) So, where do I sign for the modern medicine?  BUT I’m not going to lie and say they don’t scare me because they do.  If you are looking for the biggest challenge of your life besides birthing a child, try NOT moving during a contraction while a foot long needle gets placed in your spine.
  • Here is what I’m going to focus on in the delivery room: I know that labor is only a small point in time.  This too shall pass.  I know that whatever this baby’s birth story will be, we will retell it and I will feel a deep sense of pride.  I know that every contraction brings you closer to meeting your newborn so instead of wishing them away, I’m going to try to encourage them on.

And for now, I’ll keep staring at my 2 children.  I’ll keep soaking in the last days of being a family of 4. And I’ll keep reminding myself there isn’t a chance in hell I wouldn’t do it all again for them, every week in fact, just so that I could have the privilege of being their mama.

 

Bring It On.

-MIM- 

Read More Post in this category

NEVER MISS A POST.

Enter your email address to subscribe to this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email.

Thank you for subscribing!

NEVER MISS A POST.

Enter your email address to subscribe to this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email.

Thank you for subscribing!

NEVER MISS A POST.

Enter your email address to subscribe to this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email.

Thank you for subscribing!