Today I was playing with The D Man in music class and the teacher sang “Okay, now dance with your little one!” So I picked him up and pretended that we were at a dance, with me holding onto his back, our other arms straight out, hands locked. We whirled around, and he tilted his head back and gave me the best open-mouthed belly laugh. My heart stopped in that moment. I had a flash-forward vision in my head that we were dancing at his wedding. It happened so quickly and so vividly it was alarming. An overwhelming feeling of nostalgia hit me, and I realized something – this is it. This is the time, right now. The music classes, the morning routine, the lunches, the diaper changes, the pick-up and drop-offs, all of it. This is the time when I’ll look back and say “I miss those days. And I would do it all over again in a heartbeat.”
I love you. “How much?” So much. “How much is ‘So’?” Way, way more than you know…I love you as bright as each sparkling star, and as way out as space. I love you that far. I love you as BIG as a great lion’s roar, and as deep as the ocean, I love you much more. I love you as loud as a thundery sky, and as tall as the mountains, I love you that high. I love you as silly as a puppy dog’s kiss, and as quiet as midnight, I love you like this. “Do you love me every day?” you ask with surprise. “Or does love come and go like passing butterflies?” I love you as steady as the moon and the sun, thought some of our days are not full of fun. “Like when you feel mad?” you ask with distress, “’cause I’ve broken the rules or made a big mess?” I love you when you’re nice, and when you’re cranky, too. I love you without liking the naughty things you do. My ‘love you’ doesn’t change like the weather of the days. It’s a certain kind of thing in many different ways. You’re my sweetie, my dear, my smile and giggle. You’re my playmate for always, my hug and my wiggle. Hanging out with you is where I want to be, eating ice cream sundaes or watching the TV. Under your umbrella, behind you on a bike, by you and beside you is what I really like. I can’t imagine life before you came along. You are the music to my dance and my song. I am meant for you and you are meant for me, the one I love forevermore…undeniably.
I LOVE YOU SO by Marianne Richmond